Stuart over at Something to Stu Over has nominated me for the Sunshine Blogger Award! Thank you so much Stuart! ❤
I love reading Stuart’s awards/tags. He’s the best! You can check out his post here.
Here are the guidelines:
- Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog so others can find them. ✔
- List the rules and display an award logo on your blog post. ✔
- Answer the 11 questions the blogger asked you. ✔
- Nominate 11 new blogs to receive the award and notify them by commenting on any of their posts. ❌
- Ask the nominees 11 new questions. ✔
Here are Stuart’s questions:
1. What is your biggest source of joy?
2. What song reflects your life the most?
Hmmm…. there are soooo many, but at this time in my life…. I’ll go with “Cry Pretty” by Carrie Underwood. I blast this one even though I’m only supposed to be listening to Christian music until January (I just CAN’T behave)…
3. If you wrote your autobiography what would the title of it be?
“Confessions and Thoughts of a Reluctant Preacher’s Daughter” 😉
4. If you are a smoker, how many times have you tried to quit?
Stuart, this one took me sooooo long to decide if I could answer. For some reason, I HAD to…
Stuart has encouraged me in the past to write what I want no matter how long it is. Addiction is something I feel very passionate about. I have a heart for addicts and I want to see them set free. I had to have experience with being addicted to things and people before I could ever understand the compassion that people so desperately need when they are drowning, pulled down, held tight deep in Satan’s claws of addiction about to be pulled completely under. Preachers who have never had to overcome an addiction cannot fully understand what addicts go through. It’s like trying to explain what chocolate tastes like to someone who has no taste buds. They will never understand how it tastes or how good it makes you feel. Therefore, they have no idea what you go through to give it up completely. They just think you are weak/messed up/stupid/a dumbhead/an idiot who needs to just STOP because you’re committing sin (yes, that is exactly how addicts are thought of by certain Christians). In my opinion, it is the ones who have struggled with addiction who are the best at understanding and reaching those who need to be set free. That being said, I also know that God has the power to set people free instantly in a powerful Church service where my father can reach Heaven. That is the best way to be set free. Unfortunately, that is not my story and I am nowhere near the level of reaching God like I see my father do. I have so much respect for him, I never want to embarrass him by sharing my story. That is why I do not like to talk about my personal addictions. My personal story, my weaknesses, would embarrass/upset my parents and my brothers. I never talk to them about stuff like this because they wouldn’t understand me at all. I would be made to feel like an idiot for playing with fire. In fact, one of my brothers (a pastor) actually got up in Church and told us all to stop talking about what we did in sin. He said that if the person next to us knew what we had done, they wouldn’t want to sit next to us. After that service, I kept my testimony and my struggles to myself… for YEARS. Thanks to Dollface and Stuart, I have begun to share things with my readers. At the risk of possibly helping someone quit doing something … here it goes:
I LOVED the smell of my Grandma’s freshly lit cigarette as it filled the backseat along with the night air from her cracked window. Oh my….I was gonna have to try it one day and eventually, I did. Quitting? Ohhhhhh, brother Stuart, I have been there! Too many times!!! There is nothing like that feeling of every single muscle relaxing in your body and then feeling like you can handle anything. I mean… there is something better than that feeling, but that feeling doesn’t last long and you can’t exactly do that 20 times a day or even in public. 😉 I got to a point where I was DESPERATE to quit. I got my Bible, sat down on my sofa, read scripture and I cried out to God that day like I never had before. I had a powerful “come to Jesus moment” and then I about lost my mind from withdrawal! That time though, it was for good and I made it through. I believe that was almost 15 years ago and only in my dreams have ever I smoked another one. I will wake up and realize that thank the Lord it was just a dream! THAT is how addicted I was.
Smoking is one of the most selfish things a person can do. The only person who gets any satisfaction out of it is the person smoking the cigarette. I think you just really have to want something more than the cigarettes. For me, I wanted to be free. I would die for my children, but I had to love them more than that. I had to love them enough to LIVE for them. I wanted to quit more than anything and that’s the point I think one has to get to in order to make it through the withdrawal. And you do get through the withdrawal! No lie though, it is a living Hell and it’s worth every minute of it once you are free.
Addiction of any kind is horrible. Anyone can become addicted to anything at anytime and no one is above it. You will do ANYTHING to get your next “hit”, your next “fix” whether it last 5 minutes or 5 hours and NOTHING will stop you from getting it. Addiction is a living Hell. I’ve been there. I’ve been addicted to more than one thing in my life. In fact, there are things and a certain Man I am addicted to right now. What I have learned in my experience is this: To give something up, you have to be at the place where you would rather die from not having/doing it than to die from having it/doing it.
5. When shopping, what is the first department you go to?
Health and beauty.
6. Do you separate your laundry into darks, lights and whites or do you just chunk them in the washer and go with it?
Hahaha, these are good questions Stuart! I always separate my laundry:
Darks, Whites, Jeans, Towels, Delicates… etc.
7. Do you like driving at night?
Nope. I do not see well at night with all of the lights from the oncoming cars. I’m a very good driver, but I hate driving at night.
8. When it comes to things you will not eat, is it because of the texture or taste?
9. How many states or providences have you visited?
17 states that I remember.
10. What is your life verse?
Oh that one is hard! I have more than one, but I’ll go with this one…
“And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand.” ~ John 10:28
11. What are your favorite pizza toppings?
Mushrooms, Green Peppers and Extra Sauce!
Here are those I choose to give the award to:
*To those I have chosen to give this award to…please do not feel obligated to participate. I just want to say thank you for sharing your rays of sunshine with us and those around you.*
Here are my questions:
1. What is your favorite color?
2. Do you like cats or dogs?
3. Football or baseball?
4. If you could be an animal, what would you be?
5. If you could know the exact place and time you will die, would you want to know?
6. Do you believe in love at first sight?
7. Who is your favorite actor?
8. What is your favorite movie?
9. What is your favorite book?
10. What is your favorite song?
11. What country would you like to visit one day?
Thanks again Stuart! I knew my answers can turn into an entire post, so I try to reign it in. You had the best questions and I wish I could’ve used them instead of coming up with new ones. My brain is just fried today, so it is what it is. 🙂
Amazed By His Grace,