“You don’t need someone to complete you. You need someone to accept you completely.”
Hello my beautiful friends and readers! I have gotten 1,000 “Likes” on my blog!!! Whoa. Thank you for all of your support. ❤ I managed to get a few post finished this week:
I still need to work on my celebration post and I’m REALLY trying to finish my “Mr. Bodyguard” series. That one is tough. I have to take breaks from it. He is the hardest man to write about. I am excited the closer I get to finishing it. I told DollFace that I’m only gonna talk about my story once and then I’m moving on. I kept it to myself for YEARS and I have protected people for DECADES… enough was enough. I will reference back to it of course during my blogging/healing journey, but I do not want to “live there” any longer in my mind… in my heart. That is my goal anyways. I have lots of goals…
To not wake up every single morning with a broken heart.
To not feel broken every single day of my life.
To understand and see clearly the reasons behind the choices we made.
To know that God had a plan that didn’t rely on us making the best decisions.
To know that God knew I was gonna screw up and he let Mr. Bodyguard love me anyways.
To understand that God knew Mr. Bodyguard would leave me and he allowed me to love him anyways.
To finally stop feeling like I am only half a person.
To stop feeling guilty.
To accept love from the Man in my life who will never leave me.
To feel worthy of such love.
To accept the past and be at PEACE with it. Jesus… give me peace.
Summer break had a very rough start, but it always does. It takes at least a week to get situated and feel like I can get a grip on the new schedule with my youngest daughter being out of school. She is not a fan of summer really, she would much rather be at school. I’m trying to keep her happy with outings and fun.
DollFace and I are trying to spend as much time together doing fun stuff with sissy as much as we can. Next year, we will be lucky to spend any time together at all. We go to the movies at least once a week and work on our blogs together. We had our weekly “Girl’s night” early this week. We ate pizza, watched trash (soaps) and a new reality show that we love called “sMothered”. That show is crazy! It’s about moms and daughters who are wayyyyyyy to close to each other. I love watching this trash with DollFace. It’s a nice escape from our own reality.
I didn’t get to see my dad at all this week. I hope we can get together soon. My mother’s birthday is next week and I picked up something pretty (and pink) today that I think she will like. Shhhhh! 😉 It’s important to celebrate people. A card, a gift, a cake, or a party… just do something to make sure people know they are loved. Jesus said, “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you, that you also love one another.” We are commanded to LOVE people. I don’t know about you, but I have a very hard time letting anyone feel unloved no matter what they have done. Nothing they do will ever make me stop loving them or turn my back on them. They may never change and they may act like the devil. There is nothing you or I can do about it. Only God can change a person’s heart. Even if He never does, I will still love them as I refuse to become them.
It’s so hot here, but beautiful. I just can’t get enough of the beauty that surrounds me. I am in constant awe every time. People probably get tired of me admiring God’s handiwork, but I feel it is important to stop and see the beauty in the world. I choose to see the beauty in every single thing I can. I appreciate every moment that brings happiness. I am also learning to appreciate moments that bring brokenness and send me running into the arms Jesus.
My Man planned a day of fun for just the two of us. He has been wanting to do that for awhile. Our schedules never seem to line up as much as he would like. On top of that, my anxiety was pretty bad this week, but I made him a priority. I reminded myself to just “breathe” and stop focusing on certain things. I took in the beauty of the mountains and palm tress. He took me to Mimi’s and the food was good! He had that beautiful steak. He gave me a bite and it was really good. I think I might get that next time. Then, we went shopping. He loves to make me shop. Seriously, he acts like Richard Gere in the movie “Pretty Woman”. I am convinced that one of his top ways of expressing his love to me is gifts. I didn’t understand it at first, but I am learning that we can give love in different ways than we receive love. I found a cute outfit and a pair of shoes in my size (5 1/2)! They were marked down to $11.99 and I think I will wear them repeatedly this summer. I haven’t had white sandals in a while. I have a very hard time finding shoes. He took me to Charming Charlie’s (one of my favorite stores) and insisted I get a new purse. He let me browse for a long time before he checked on me. The moment I spotted this red beauty, I loved it. He came walking in and went to the exact purse I wanted, picked it up and went to the counter (he knows me very well). He really liked it. Yes, he picks out things for me, is very vocal about what he likes and doesn’t like. Lucky for me, red always catches his eye. It’s so pretty…
Blog post picks this week:
Have a great week everyone! Thank you for stopping by. I love you guys. 💋 God bless you. 💕
“Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God.” ~ 1 John 4:7
Amazed By His Grace,