Quote, Song and Thoughts of the Week| June 9th

“Brokenness is a perfume that pride cannot produce.”

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Hello, my beautiful friends and readers! ๐Ÿค— I hope you all had a fantastic week and if summer has arrived where you live, I hope you are staying cool. ๐Ÿ˜Ž

I wasn’t feeling very well last Sunday. ๐Ÿ˜” I didn’t have much of an appetite and DollFace was worried about me. My sweet son-in-law brought me mashed potatoes and gravy from KFC. They were the only things that sounded good to me. I ate the whole family size bowl all by myself. ๐Ÿ˜ฌ

I just haven’t felt well at all. I got a really bad headache that went on and on. 3 days in fact. I’m trying to just deal and keep moving. 

DollFace and I decided to have our weekly “Girl’s Night” a little early so she could spend Saturday with her Hubby. We picked up our usual pizza and she got me some kind of cold coffee drink with… CHOCOLATE. It was yummy! We went back to my house and binge watched some of our naughty shows (usually soaps, bachelorette…etc) while we ate. Then we did our manicures and pedicures. ๐Ÿ’…๐Ÿผ I stayed awake long enough this week!!! Maybe it was the coffee drink? I did a new red color with sparkles that my Man wanted me to try. It turned out really pretty and I was surprised. I like it more than I thought I would. DollFace painted sissy’s princess pink. So pretty. Then, she painted her own a new matte blue color. Very cool! She loves dark/metallic/neon colors. They suit her. We also made time this week to play in the pool before it got way too hot. I REALLY hate summer here. 

I got to see my father this week. ๐Ÿ˜Š I like to take him out to breakfast once a month when he can go. He LOVES sausage and egg biscuits. Both of my girls got to have breakfast with him this time as well. My youngest daughter is out of school for the summer and she loved seeing my dad. After we eat breakfast, we go grocery shopping. Eating before we go helps us to not become the proud owners of aisle #5. ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ˜›

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My pain, anxiety and headaches have been so bad that I found myself withdrawing from life at times this week and taking lots of medicine. I hate taking medicine. It’s hard to function when your body says, “Enough” and stops you in your tracks. ๐Ÿ˜ญ I still make myself get things done and do what I gotta do.

It’s not easy being broken mentally and physically. It’s not easy to accept what will never be. It’s not easy to get over some things in life. We have to though. We have to keep going. We have to keep loving like we’ve never been hurt. It’s a process… a long one. Some people make it look easy. Not me. I struggle everyday, I seek help and am desperate to heal. I’m trying to find the purpose in the pain. I’m trying to deal with the aftermath of my life choices and other people’s choices. I found a new guy I like to listen to on YouTube and he motivates me. If you find yourself in a place like me, YouTube has been a good tool to find motivational speakers. I also like to listen to sermons. I love Pastor Jentezen Franklin. If he’s too intense, there is always Joel Osteen. ๐Ÿ˜‰ Anything that helps is fine. Motivational talks or sermons, I put things like that on in the background and listen to them on my tablet while I do dishes/clean/fold laundry. 

I didn’t get to see my man much at all. He has been pretty much unavailable physically most days this week and I was in my “pain/headache/anxiety cocoon”. It is weeks like this that I feel like we are worlds apart. He text me all the time, but I just don’t have much to say. My mind has so many things running through it, but I can’t manage to put it into words for him it seems. I freeze. I let him be. I withdraw. Why he loves me, why he text me all day, why he calls and says, “I just needed to hear your voice…” I honestly have no idea. I’ve never had a man love me like that. Sometimes, I don’t know how to react. He’s so… intense. Good or bad, he is the most intense Man. He is also the only man who tries to put me back together when I fall apart. Sometimes, I need his intensity to remind me who I am and bring me back to life. I hope our schedules line up soon. I need to spend some quality time letting him love me like only he can do. Sigh… he’s too good at that.

The song this week, I dedicate to him… 

“Sometimes when I fall down low

And I got no where else to go

I hide myself, don’t let it show

But you find me

Sometimes when the day goes by

I’ve missed it ’cause all I did was cry

You always know the reason why

You know me

You always got the words that never let me down, let me down

Always make me laugh somehow

You tell me don’t worry When I’ve done wrong

It’s something that I’ll never know

How you can love someone so broken, so right?

‘Cause all I ever wanted, was a little bit of Paradise”

~ Broken ( Lyrics) – Jess Glynne

I didn’t get much writing in at all. I did get one tag finished: June | Honor Thy Father Tag

Maybe I can get more done this week. I hope you all have a fantastic week! I love you guys. ๐Ÿ’‹ God bless you. ๐Ÿ’•

“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.” ~ Psalm 51:17

Amazed By His Grace,

Purple Rose

 

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14 thoughts on “Quote, Song and Thoughts of the Week| June 9th

  1. Dollfaced Writer says:

    Yes!!! Your nails always look beautiful โค I loved spending time with you!

    I’m so sorry you haven’t been feeling well ๐Ÿ˜” hopefully soon things look up and we can enjoy life. It’s been hard to…

    Even though you don’t feel like it, you are an amazing mother, daughter, and wife. ๐Ÿ˜Š

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    • Purple Rose says:

      Oh nooo!!! Iโ€™m glad you are getting well. ๐Ÿ’•

      Yes, we do! We try to do something fun once or twice a week. She will be graduating college next year and I wonโ€™t get to see her very much after that. Life is gonna change yet again for both of us. ๐Ÿ˜ญ So, we are enjoying our last year of getting to see each other this much. ๐Ÿ’•

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  2. Stuart L. Tutt says:

    You need not worry about writing. You need to get better. No more feeling sickly ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I already have a friend that stays sick with migraines and asthma. Love her anyway though ๐Ÿ™‚

    Yes, I pray your schedule align soon. Hubby and wife time is important!!!

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    • Purple Rose says:

      Okay, I will take a break from writing until later this week and try to get better. ๐Ÿ˜‰ I can totally relate to your friends migraines. I get them several times a year and they knock me down real good. ๐Ÿ˜ญ Your friend and I are blessed to have men who love us as we are. ๐Ÿ’•

      Thank you! This week doesn’t look so good at all. Hopefully, we can go out sometime next week.

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    • Purple Rose says:

      Thank you!๐Ÿ’•

      Right? My youngest daughter has had two rounds of antibiotic for a sinus infection and she’s still not 100%. I don’t know what is going on. ๐Ÿ˜”

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      • Purple Rose says:

        Wow! Yes, that sounds like something worse than just a sinus infection. I thought I might have had had the walking pneumonia stuff too. ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

        My doctor was gone and the doctor I saw 2 times was instant that I get better on my own. I was sick for over 2 months with whatever it was it seems. I’m MUCH better, but not myself.

        I gave up on thinking the doctor would help me. ๐Ÿ˜” I put a cool mist humidifier right next to me at night (love that thing!), put essential oils for breathing in my oil diffusers (ahhhh), use saline water to rinse my nose, and take allergy medicine. After a few weeks, I started to think I might be getting better. ๐Ÿ˜‚

        I’m so glad you are feeling better. ๐Ÿ’•

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      • Renee/Heart Tokens says:

        I feel you! Same here. I didnโ€™t have a humidifier, but put essential oil in my wax warmer for breathing. And did all the other stuff also. I even put Vickโ€™s salve on my feet at night! ๐Ÿ˜‚ Itโ€™s suppose to help with the breathing. I donโ€™t like putting on the chest… One doctor told me it would just have to run its course. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

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