Mr. Bodyguard ~ Part Three

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“I thought you were healing me but no, you broke me even more.”

Mr. Bodyguard and I spent quite a bit of time together. I loved being his girl. We were perfect together. He had saved me from the dark pit I had sunk into after being abused by my Ex-Fiancé. I was functioning very well in my daily life. I was happy and hopeful. My new boyfriend got along with my big brothers and my parents liked him. I had new friends (Mr. Bodyguard’s family) and I loved spending as much time as I could with them. Everything was looking up for once. I began to get back my self-respect. I  learned to be resilient. My past no longer defined me. I was healing. Mr. Bodyguard was the best gift God could have sent to help me do so. I learned that not “all” men were jerks. Mr. Bodyguard had done the impossible, he had finally earned my trust. I trusted him completely. I loved him… I really loved him.  

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After around three months, something happened. It was baseball day, I got ready, went in the living room, sat down on the couch and looked out the window like I always did. Usually, I could see his sports car coming down the street and I would jump up to go meet him. This day, I waited and I waited, no Mr. Bodyguard. I didn’t understand why he never showed up. I was so disappointed. I had no idea why he decided not to pick me up that day. Everything seemed fine. We made each other happy. We had MAGIC. Lots of it. We also had certain boundaries we did not cross. We had respect for each other. We were going to Church and this relationship was different from the last. Him not showing up and not even calling me made no sense at all. I don’t remember anything going wrong the last time I was with him. What had I done? I had no clue. The days following, there were no phone calls and no visits from him. This was unusual, but I was so busy with work I just kinda let it go. The next baseball day, I did the same thing. I got all ready to go and I sat there on the couch like a puppy looking out the window for my boyfriend. I missed him terribly. I didn’t understand why he hadn’t picked me up the last time or why he wasn’t calling me. I waited and waited until I finally realized, he wasn’t coming. I felt like such a fool. 

He never called or came to see me. He just vanished. 

“I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to become.” ~ Carl Gustav Jung

I’m not one to chase after a man. I don’t compete with other women for a man either. If a man wants to be with me, he will be with me. If he wants someone else, I will love him enough to let him go even when it almost kills me to do so. That’s just how I’m built. I was completely crushed that Mr. Bodyguard had vanished. I missed everything about him. I had no idea where he was or why he didn’t call. Weeks went by… nothing. I was heartbroken that he left me with no explanation. The strange thing was, I was so much stronger mentally than when I met him. I wasn’t in a dark pit anymore. It was like he had helped me cross a bridge, a very long bridge. Even without him there, I wanted to live. I wanted to love and be loved. He had shown me that I could be loved and cherished by a man. I wasn’t worthless and I wasn’t damaged beyond repair. I felt like I was worthy of love and I had a lot of love to give. I’m so thankful that Mr. Bodyguard had been there for me in my darkest days. He saved me. I am eternally grateful to him for saving my life…

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This one is for you Mr. Bodyguard…

“We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere.”  ~ Tim McGraw

Amazed By His Grace, 

Purple Rose

 

Mr. Bodyguard ~ Part Four (He returns)

Mr. Fantasy ~ Part One

Mr. Bodyguard ~ Part Two

Mr. Bodyguard ~ Part One

The Heart Of 17 Year Old Purple Rose

Mr. Godfather ~ Part Ten (Final)

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32 thoughts on “Mr. Bodyguard ~ Part Three

  1. Stuart L. Tutt says:

    Ah man 😦

    But you are right. He showed you that YOU could love again and be cherished by a man in the right way. Forever be thankful for that.

    That’s one thing my love of a lifetime and I agree on. We showed each other that we could truly be loved and that we were worthy of that love. We have the best memories of showing that love to one another.

    I’m glad you can look back and be thankful!

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  2. Amy Blount says:

    Well I’m not so forgiving as everyone else! Where did he go? What did he do? Didnt you want to go find him and step on his foot? Lol…

    Seriously, yeah he helped you get past mr Godfather and helped you learn to love again. Did you ever see him again? Oh I’m sorry I’m so nosey

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    • Purple Rose says:

      Amy! Lol 🙂

      I was honestly devastated. I just didn’t chase after him. Maybe I thought I didn’t deserve him? I didn’t have a lot of time to chase him anyways, I was lucky just to get away for the games. I wasn’t allowed to have a driver’s license. I couldn’t go to his house or hang out anywhere looking for him.

      You are fine! I’m glad you are enjoying my experiences so much. That makes me happy 🙂

      You may ask me anything. ❤

      All your questions should be answered soon… starting tomorrow with “Mr. Fantasy ~ Part one”

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      • Amy Blount says:

        Wow Mr fantasy? Hmm intriguing. I’m heading out of town for a bible quiz tournament for my middle daughter. So I’ll be looking forward to something to read aside from the 100 verses she’s been memorizing on our little trip.
        I wish I had some of those restrictions put on me as a teenager…although then I wouldn’t have been a part of the coolest ever house-teepee-ing fiasco.

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      • Purple Rose says:

        Yeah! I think you’ll like these next parts. I’m having fun now that I’m past the Mr. Godfather time. It’s a roller coaster though!

        I finally got my DL when I was 19 years old and I bought my first car before I had even had my DL.

        Bet you had a blast getting into mischief Amy!

        I hope your daughter wins the tournament. That sounds like fun.

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    • Purple Rose says:

      No, I don’t remember seeing them at all during the time he was gone. They didn’t come to my work anymore and I didn’t go anywhere they were unless I was with him. Honestly, it was surprising when they showed up at the party. They were just like always, but he was distant. I have no idea what was said to them during that time. I wonder what they thought happened… I should have asked! 😂

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      • Purple Rose says:

        This was over 2 decades ago and to this day, I’ve never been able to figure him out. 😂 I do love his family though. His oldest sister was so good to me. His father was the sweetest. And his mother was a real mom… I needed that. I’m so glad they came to my party. I probably never told them any of that.

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